Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Star Wars Mistakes

I've been watching Star Wars for a couple of days now and I've noticed many things I've never thought of before. Mistakes in the movies. I just had to search YouTube for it and there I found even more. Now I'm busy doing something that I don't have to do. Again.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I'm so not doing what I should be doing...
I should be reading about English grammar in the hope of learning something that will stick to my Teflon mind. What am I doing? I'm looking at Matte Paintings. When I'm not watching TV or reading history magazines. The odds of me learning something useful today are slim.

Monday, September 26, 2011

"Words you say never seem to live up to the ones inside your head."

My sister called and asked if my oldest niece could come and visit us. The answer is no, but I found myself saying "Uhm... I don't know... I ... uhmm... just don't know right now ..." That's just stupid. I know very well that I can't take care of myself and my own family as it is and taking care of her kid too is simply too much. My sister knows that I'm not well, it's rude of her to even get the though and ask me. Still, I'm unable to say one simple word. No!

The nurse called back about the appointment I was promised to get in early August. I'll get one in early October instead. I asked if they really could do things like this, promise and appointment and then not give it until two months later. She did not answer, she just said goodbye.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

I haven't the foggiest...

It can't be age related, I'm not that old, but I keep forgetting things. What did I do yesterday? Well... hmmm...? When did that happen? Lemme see now ... hmm...? It's as if there is a black hole that keeps swallowing information and removing it from my world.

Saturday, September 24, 2011


I talked to mom on the phone today. I told her that everything is fine. I lied. There is no point in telling how things really are, there is nothing she can do to change it. Telling her about it will on the other hand make me feel worse. What's worse than feeling worthless? Admitting that you are pretty damn worthless.

I'm thinking about a fantasy character I'd like to create. I'd like him to have a look that makes people think of a tree, but not like the ents and hurons in LOTR. Tree but not a tree, will that ever make sense? How do I describe such a being?

Friday, September 23, 2011

I'm writing again...

Not much and it doesn't come out right, but at least I'm writing. Well, I'm sort of writing. A few words now and then, then I draw something, Googel something else and watch Star Wars. We've bought the blue ray box and I've been watching for days. First all films, then the films with the commentaries and now I'm heading towards the three extra discs and what ever is on them. I'm really loving the commentaries and all the explanations and extra information in them. Homages, added funny things (such as the kitchen sink), the locations they have been at and where all the sounds come from. Great fun. =)

Thursday, September 22, 2011


I've finally gotten around to calling the health center to ask why they have not given me the appointment I was promised to get at the beginning of August. Apparently, the doctor who was supposed to give me the appointment is on vacation (moose hunting?) this week but he will be back net week and they will call me then.

How does this add up? It's been over a month since I should have heard from him. He's not there this week... What happened to all the other weeks in between? How could the fact that he's on vacation this week stop him from contacting me during the other weeks? Logical, it is not.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

“Life is full of misery, loneliness, and suffering - and it’s all over much too soon. - Woody Allen

More WWF Posters with optical illusions
No matter what I do I can't keep myself up for long. I'm down, blue, pessimistic and I dislike most things in the world as it is. Nothing is fun, nothing is relaxing and nothing can keep my interest for long.